The Question of the Arts

It seemed as if it was only yesterday that my film professor stood up in the first day of school and asked everyone, “Well, students, there is a good possibility that you will not find a job after in this field.”

I didn’t know what that really meant. Will it be difficult to find a job? Or the artist in me will prevail?

Unfortunately, it turned out that I only grew scared after hearing stories of other film students going to L.A. failing to achieve their dreams. For that reason, I stopped and kind of just did my own thing without knowing that I myself completely just let myself down. I never even tried. I never even continued writing screenplays and go to Hollywood to give the industry a try.

I coward out.

Who can I blame but myself?

It has been 11 years since I graduated Film School, which means that it has been about 11 years since I published my book ‘The Prince of the Shadow Warriors’. I can’t believe it has been that long. I got old and I abandoned everything that I had gone to school for. I stopped writing. I stopped trying. It is only now that I have gotten back to writing and trying to re-learn the art of film making. All I have are old screenplays in my drawer from Film school. In fact, my camera that that I used in school, a top-notched equipment back in the day, is now considered obsolete.

And, I will give round 2 a better try.

I have been writing a lot. I mean, at least 4-8 hours a day. Sometimes, even 14 hours in one day, depending on my mood. But, that is rare and I found out that it is actually bad for my health. So, for the past month, I have been writing for about 4-8 hours a day.

What do writers do?

Yes, we write. And, I believe that I have evolved as a writer.

I can no longer bring back the time, but I can still make up for the time lost: those times in which should have been spent writing and improving the craft.

It has been a long day. I think I will just listen to music right now, as I save this post around 9:24 pm. I hope to remember to post this entry in the morning.

Have you ever given up on a dream from peer pressure or by seeing so many not achieving their dream?


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