It seemed as if it was only yesterday that my film professor stood up in the first day of school and asked everyone, “Well, students, there is a good possibility that you will not find a job after in this field.”
I didn’t know what that really meant. Will it be difficult to find a job? Or the artist in me will prevail?
Unfortunately, it turned out that I only grew scared after hearing stories of other film students going to L.A. failing to achieve their dreams. For that reason, I stopped and kind of just did my own thing without knowing that I myself completely just let myself down. I never even tried. I never even continued writing screenplays and go to Hollywood to give the industry a try.
I coward out.
Who can I blame but myself?
It has been 11 years since I graduated Film School, which means that it has been about 11 years since I published my book ‘The Prince of the Shadow Warriors’. I can’t believe it has been that long. I got old and I abandoned everything that I had gone to school for. I stopped writing. I stopped trying. It is only now that I have gotten back to writing and trying to re-learn the art of film making. All I have are old screenplays in my drawer from Film school. In fact, my camera that that I used in school, a top-notched equipment back in the day, is now considered obsolete.
And, I will give round 2 a better try.
I have been writing a lot. I mean, at least 4-8 hours a day. Sometimes, even 14 hours in one day, depending on my mood. But, that is rare and I found out that it is actually bad for my health. So, for the past month, I have been writing for about 4-8 hours a day.
What do writers do?
Yes, we write. And, I believe that I have evolved as a writer.
I can no longer bring back the time, but I can still make up for the time lost: those times in which should have been spent writing and improving the craft.
It has been a long day. I think I will just listen to music right now, as I save this post around 9:24 pm. I hope to remember to post this entry in the morning.
Have you ever given up on a dream from peer pressure or by seeing so many not achieving their dream?